Talked with my cousin Tricia today...ok not really...just text back and forth. I miss my cousin, my best friend, my little sister...who has always been there for me no matter the distance between us. A couple of years ago she moved from California to Arizona and ended up in Texas.
We grew up with 3 houses in between our homes. She was my maid of honor. I was there for three of her children's births...I mean I was there...I watched and cried with her. I've never had anyone else in my life like her. Her kids are my kids, and I miss them so much.
Growing up we said we take trips together. (I still owe her a trip to Hawaii...you thought I had forgotten...didn't you?) We'd have daughters that were the same age difference as us...3 yrs and 8 months...well we kind of did it...our youngest daughters are 3 years 11 months apart. We said they'd be best friends like we were...kind of hard now that we live so far apart. We use to talk everyday, but now with our growing families and the busy lives we both have, it's not as easy. But I know she will always be there for me and I will always be there for her.
I think it's kind of cool that even though she is so far away, she still knows when I need someone to talk to or just a "hey I'm thinking of you" text or call. I'm blessed to call her my friend, sister and my "favorite" cousin.
**My last 2 posts have been about my best friends...I'm lucky I have a couple in my life, including my husband.
Trish...I pray you come home soon. I miss you and I love you. I want our kids to grow up together, just like we did. I miss being able to walk to your house and just talk about nothing and everything.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Our Friendship:
About 3 years ago our paths crossed. Wasn't until a year a later we started talking and hanging out. "I'm so thankful our friendship was part of His plan."
Love the fact that we are able to be "ourselves" around each other...even if it's just us been goofy and laughing at...well...anything!
We've been there for important moments in each other's lives...birthdays and holidays, from being pregnant to the births of our daughters...medical issues and your surgeries...from me being "lost" and now baptized. Good times and fun times...some hard moments, but we always manage to get through them with each other's help and love.
Thank you for your true friendship and for loving me as you do. Thank you for your prayers, they always mean so much to me. I hope I get the courage to pray with and for you soon.
Here is to many more years of an awesome friendship and to all of the new memories to be made.
I can thank you for so much more...I hope you know how much you mean to me and my family. Love you buddy!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Baptism Day @ the Beach:
**Where's Cindy?
**Walking into the chilly water.
**What a day! I was so nervous...why...because that's me! Everyone tried to calm me down, I was a wreck. Thank goodness for my family and friends, they all came to support me and showed me love like I've never felt. I was so blessed that day. I had my best friend walk and pray with me, which made my heart smile. As I waited for my turn to go into the water...I stood alone, until I turned and there was my love...my husband took my hand and told me he would always be there when I needed him. I love him! I will forever remember that wonderful day. It's the day I began a "new" life.
Miss Audrey's 1st Birthday:
***Happy girl! Thanks to Rachel for making this cute outfit for Audrey.
***Happy 1st Birthday***
**John & Ryan went out a bought an ice cream cake (cookies & cream)
**Cake #2 - John & Ryan went out and bought another cake...mint chocolate chip...because it's their wives' favorite. Our husbands are "the best."
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Wait and See:
Heard this song on the radio. There was a line that really stuck with me.
"still wondering why I'm here, still wrestling with my fear, but oh, He's up to something, And the further on I go, I've seen enough to know that I'm not here for nothing, He's up to something".
I have so many fears. Wishing I could just make them all go away.
Am I a good wife? Am I a nurturing mother to my children? How am I doing as a friend? Am I who I'm suppose to be? What's next for me...where do I go...where do I belong? I've been wrestling with these questions for quite sometime. I know I just need to let everything go and I will be guided into the direction of where I need to be.
This is still a learning process. No one is perfect. It's like trial and error. I make many mistakes, but I'm still trying and I will not give up. Praying that I become a better person. I pray for a more caring heart...it's not all about me...it's about the person sitting next to me that may need to have someone listen or a shoulder to cry on. Maybe it's me helping my mom out a little more, and not whining about all that she asks of me. Maybe it's spending more time with my husband and showing him that he's loved and appreciated. Maybe it's me volunteering at the local food bank or ? I know and now have faith that I will be healed in my fear of "being me". Sounds weird, but I hope it makes some sense.
Although I'm the "introverted" friend/mother/wife/etc...I'm looking forward to where I'm being led. I know there are "plans" for me.
**After reading this, it really is a bunch of rambling. But I decided to post it anyways, that is another fear: afraid that people may not want to hear what I have to say or that someone isn't listening. So blogging is a way for me to speak out loud.
"still wondering why I'm here, still wrestling with my fear, but oh, He's up to something, And the further on I go, I've seen enough to know that I'm not here for nothing, He's up to something".
I have so many fears. Wishing I could just make them all go away.
Am I a good wife? Am I a nurturing mother to my children? How am I doing as a friend? Am I who I'm suppose to be? What's next for me...where do I go...where do I belong? I've been wrestling with these questions for quite sometime. I know I just need to let everything go and I will be guided into the direction of where I need to be.
This is still a learning process. No one is perfect. It's like trial and error. I make many mistakes, but I'm still trying and I will not give up. Praying that I become a better person. I pray for a more caring heart...it's not all about me...it's about the person sitting next to me that may need to have someone listen or a shoulder to cry on. Maybe it's me helping my mom out a little more, and not whining about all that she asks of me. Maybe it's spending more time with my husband and showing him that he's loved and appreciated. Maybe it's me volunteering at the local food bank or ? I know and now have faith that I will be healed in my fear of "being me". Sounds weird, but I hope it makes some sense.
Although I'm the "introverted" friend/mother/wife/etc...I'm looking forward to where I'm being led. I know there are "plans" for me.
**After reading this, it really is a bunch of rambling. But I decided to post it anyways, that is another fear: afraid that people may not want to hear what I have to say or that someone isn't listening. So blogging is a way for me to speak out loud.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Soccer 2009
I'm officially a SOCCER MOM of two boys. Soccer season has begun. Not much to write about just yet. I will post some photos soon.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Celebrating Dad:
**This is a day late**
Happy Birthday daddy! We could never forget your birthday...ONE reason was you never let us forget. Oh the "subtle" hints you'd give us...like "my birthday is coming"...or "hmmm what's on August 3rd". Second reason was, celebrating your birthday was always fun. I think because you'd always take us to Laughlin or Vegas (your favorite).
I know you probably hate the fact that we decorate your grave with flowers and balloons. I could hear you now..."why do you waste your money on that crap". The boys have a good time when we visit you. I know you hear them when they talk to you. They love you even though they've never met you. Audrey just wanted to rip up all the flowers, she's CrAzy! John and I continue to tell them stories and show them photos of you. Charlie wants to know if you get to play with our dog Bear (I told him you do...it made him smile).
Yesterday was a good day for us. After we visited you, we went and had lunch at Mi Casa. Cory, Skyler, Kari and Jay were there and had lunch with us. It was a nice get together. We all shared stories and memories of you.
When I got home I had received a bouquet of flowers from my friend Melinda. She said she just wanted to put some sunshine in my day. It did! And also so many people thought of you as "their dad", rather than uncle, brother in law, etc. So many great memories from so many people that truly loved you as much as I loved you. I was so blessed to have such a wonderful, caring and loving dad. I miss you.
I have so many new people in my life...my children, my best friend Rachel, her family, friends from church...I wish they had the chance to have met you and know you.
Happy Birthday daddy! We could never forget your birthday...ONE reason was you never let us forget. Oh the "subtle" hints you'd give us...like "my birthday is coming"...or "hmmm what's on August 3rd". Second reason was, celebrating your birthday was always fun. I think because you'd always take us to Laughlin or Vegas (your favorite).
I know you probably hate the fact that we decorate your grave with flowers and balloons. I could hear you now..."why do you waste your money on that crap". The boys have a good time when we visit you. I know you hear them when they talk to you. They love you even though they've never met you. Audrey just wanted to rip up all the flowers, she's CrAzy! John and I continue to tell them stories and show them photos of you. Charlie wants to know if you get to play with our dog Bear (I told him you do...it made him smile).
Yesterday was a good day for us. After we visited you, we went and had lunch at Mi Casa. Cory, Skyler, Kari and Jay were there and had lunch with us. It was a nice get together. We all shared stories and memories of you.
When I got home I had received a bouquet of flowers from my friend Melinda. She said she just wanted to put some sunshine in my day. It did! And also so many people thought of you as "their dad", rather than uncle, brother in law, etc. So many great memories from so many people that truly loved you as much as I loved you. I was so blessed to have such a wonderful, caring and loving dad. I miss you.
I have so many new people in my life...my children, my best friend Rachel, her family, friends from church...I wish they had the chance to have met you and know you.
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